Choices Lyrics:
Verse One:
You always said that you wouldn't go
And I believed you just five years old
But tell me how I was supposed to know
Yeah, tell me how I was supposed to know
That grown up words were just for show
Or that twenty six isn't all that grown
Could've gave me tools or made a different choice
Maybe then I could've kept my voice
Maybe then I could've blocked the noise
Had a real family, but now that's destroyed
You got a new one though so what's the point
Yeah, yeah tell me what's the point
Like was this your plan or did I disappoint
Who cares now though you've already made your choice
Nothing you do can fill that void
Now I'm making my choice
Takin' back my voice
Hook:
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the fire
Through the pain
Ask for help
No one's to blame
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the work
And through the pain
There's a life
For you to claim
Verse Two:
Just two grown ups who never had a plan
Who hated each other, but they ended up stayin'
But I was just a kid so I didn't understand
What I did so bad to be beaten like a man
Head small enough you could fit it in your hand
When you knocked it on the stairs
Were you feeling like a man
And what about Mom
When you pinned me to the wall
Beat my head like you were bouncin' a ball
Did you really think that your pain was my fault
Or was it my drive that made you feel small
I tried to protect you 'cause you were my Mom
But you turned your back on me
If I said something wrong
Imagine the pain trapped between those walls
What would they say if those walls could
Talk
Hook:
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the fire
Through the pain
Ask for help
No one's to blame
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the work
And through the pain
There's a life
For you to claim
Verse Three:
PTSD and BPD mmm
Now that I understand
But never gettin' help or quittin' it again
Stayin' up late will I see you again
Are you takin' my bed
Will I sleep in the shed
There's two feet of snow
At least give me a coat
Now it's three in the morning
And you're gonna go
Gather myself and tread back through the snow
Where I try to recover from your episode
But I'm still waitin' up to see where you go
'Cause you said that you're seeing Uncle Mark once again
But I know that he's gone
So please tell me your plan
'Cause I'm just a kid and I don't understand
Why you told me that you wish you were dead
While you held me down and you cried on my head
The weight of the world on a child size bed
Hook:
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the fire
Through the pain
Ask for help
No one's to blame
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Think about your choices
It's all about your choices
Through the work
And through the pain
There's a life
For you to claim
(Through the pain and through the guilt
You made a choice to not get help
You fight yourself on mental health
When you see the world you see yourself)